Her self description is: I’m Paula. I love sparkly things and hate cauliflowers. I believe in individuality and self-expression. Music geek. Love life in its simplest ways. Spend way too much time thinking and wandering. My brain is chaotic. I’ve never been pregnant. Nice to meet you. On her page http://tinkerthinker.tumblr.com/ she wrote:
A battle between the comfort of familiarity and the rush of meeting someone new.
Sometimes it does feel like a battle between that.
On one side, there’s the peaceful kind of love; the one that offers stability, comfort, and security. There are fights included, of course, but minor and infrequent ones. It’s mostly a soothing, tender love that dominates the relationship. And you think that’s all you want and need, until…
You discover a different side. It’s almost foreign to you and completely unlike the usual, stable type of feelings you get with that other person…but that’s precisely what makes it appealing. A rush. An unknown adventure, inviting you in to discover it.
Then it becomes a problem.
The tranquility of spotting your lucky bracelet vs. the excitement of unfolding a new gift.
The hospitality in knowing that tomorrow’s Monday vs. the realization that with him, it’s always Fridays.
The boring vs. the new,
Truth vs. passion. Which in the end translates to love vs. lust.
And what sets them apart, is that love is always worth it.
That fairly well describes the fight within me that I let rage for years. The toll of bouncing back and forth between love and lust cost me dearly. So glad that confusion is long behind me. I am grateful to fully know now it’s love that matters. The other is just an itch that wants to be scratched and nothing more. The hardest learned lessons have become my most vivid wisdom.
Love is the rose.
Lust is the thorn.
Sri Sathya Sai Baba